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Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Moving Along Slowly - Checking In.

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This is an example of how cool my husband is. He has no problem putting on a dorky fake mustache to have a good time and make me smile. Yes...I am lucky.

A bit has changed since my earlier post. My husband surprised me last night with a Wii! Can you believe it? I told you, I really have an amazing husband. I am quite lucky. And I do know I am lucky. I have friends who have not been blessed like I am. I am blessed to have a husband who isn't saying "Do this first, and then I'll get you a Wii." He knew that this was something I really wanted and somethingt that I really felt could help me, and he was kind enough to get it for me. I'll be honest, I expected I might be able to get one for Christmas if I was lucky.

Well, we are going on vacation soon, so I will not be unpacking it and picking up a EA Active just yet, but you can bet I will when we come home. Then I plan to start my own little program and see what happens. I don't know how much it will help with the thyroid thing, but it certainly cannot hurt. Right?

In the meantime, I am taking my meds and keeping my mind as upbeat as I can. It is hard not to be upbeat at this point, because I am so blown away by the kindness and generosity of my husband. Now if I could just feel okay in my own skin. I know to some this may seem ridiculous, but the tricks your mind can play are amazing. It is quite odd how one minute you feel okay and then suddenly this shroud of doubt hits you. I think the worst really was that I decided one day that I simply could not bear another picture being taken of me. I cannot stand the sight of myself. How sad is that? No one should feel like that.

I went browsing at clothes today. We are going to be visiting my husband's relatives and part of me is kind of freaking out. It will be weird meeting so many family members that I have not met yet. I feel like I am going to be a bit of a let down. Yes...it is my mind talking, but it is really hard sometimes taking my mind off of the physical. I just feel so not like myself. Anyway, I looked at clothing today. I had a positive feeling for a change. I still do not want to buy anything because I simply hate the size I am at now, but at least I can feel good about having a plan of action. Soon I can start working out with the help of my new Wii and I'll be getting EA Active, and knowing that feels good. In the meantime, I am parking farther away from the store to get extra mileage in my walk from the parking lot to the store. Tomorrow, I will park in my lower lot at work so I can walk the stairs. And of course there is the water. Lots and lots of water. Do you think water can flush away some of the fat that has settled into my butt? :)

I'd like to believe that some fat blobs could get caught up in the whizzing frenzy that steady water intake brings on. :) Yes...I said whizzing frenzy. I have laid it all out there at this point anyway. No more shame.

Honestly, I think just broadcasting how crappy I have been feeling has its advantages. Now I have extra accountability...right? So feel free to call me out if I don't follow through. :) I can take it...most likely. No really, I am a tough girl. I think that is why this stuff just drives me so nutty.

Well...I just wanted to check in. I do want to thank all the people who responded to me at my other blog and shared their encouragement. I pray that you are all blessed as you have blessed me.

:)

5 comments:

Yvonne said...

You have such a great husband!

Many hugs to you - I know exactly how you feel about never wanting to take another picture of yourself. I went through it and thanks to Weight Watchers - I lost 85 lbs and have kept it off for a whole year! I'm feeling so much better about myself and feel more healthier. You will get there too! Keep the faith!

ann marie said...

You have the best husband in the world. Have fun visiting the relatives and thanks for the update. :)

Lindsey said...

Weeeeeeeeeee you have a Wii! :-) So so so glad for you!

I'm sorry you're going through this hard time with yourself, but know you're not alone. I think when you get EA Sports Active you'll be SO energized and encouraged by the routine. It's awesome!

Just buy a couple nice outfits that you feel good in for now, and later you'll be able to burn them! lol

Luanne said...

Whizzing frenzy - love it! Wear your personality ( okay and some clothes) but let you shine through. It will all come together. I am so jealous of your Wii active. I've got my eye on one too - and have been hinting for Christmas already. I will be watching to see if it lives up to our hopes for it!!

lonelymonalisa said...

I have a thyroid problem too. It stinks doesn't it? I have a hard time accepting that I will have to be on this medicine for the rest of my life. I used to be the skinny girl to the point of being teased and could eat whatever I wanted. Now that I am in my 40's and 3 kids later, that doesn't work too well. I am very hard on myself and make unflattering comments about my weight in front of my kids. I know this is sooo wrong and I'm setting a bad example. Anyway, I've rambled enough. Nice to find you. Good luck with your fitness routine.